Life lately

Less than a year ago, my parents left the country to seek a new life abroad. My father is/was there to begin the dream he’s always had and my mother was there to support him as a good wife should. I was left with the responsibility of taking care of the house–basically holding down the fort and officially entering that scary thing called adulthood.

Those months were terribly lonely. I was wrestling with all kinds of anxieties, and I had no one to talk to. I was left alone with thoughts that escalated into concepts that never were; at the same time, I was dealing with feelings that were terrifying to have when you’re all on your own.

But I made it till the New Year’s alone, cuddling with my dogs, and being perfectly fine with my solitude.

These days, while my mother has gone back to visit my dad, I look forward to the solitude of home. I get to leave the craziness of my job and rest my thoughts in the peace of a quiet environment. I am free to dance to my favorite tunes, make a mess in the kitchen, catch up to my reading, and actually return to the restless thoughts that I set aside on the workdays.

This time around, being alone is not lonely. It is a welcome choice–a decision I’ve made because it is exactly where I need to be. I am an introvert after all, and in a job that demands constant coordination and motion, I need an extra day to recharge that inward energy.

So thank you 2014, for making me suffer so I can learn solitude in its quiet and graceful form.

That said, since it is a Sunday: Sunday Currently Volume 2:

Reading
Still between the pages of The Diaries of a Young Poet by Rilke. His words are not only beautiful but practical yet powerful advice on how to deal with the scariness of life and emotions.

Writing
This.

Listening
“Run Away with Me” by Carly Rae Jepsen.

Thinking
About the beach, the quiet of a destination far from my habits and everyday spaces.

Smelling
The rain.

Wishing
For good weather this week and a little bit of lady luck for what has to be done, maybe.

Wearing
A Roxy shirt.

Loving
Carly Rae Jepsen. Walang kokontra, everyone needs their bubblegum fix. I’m just so sick of Taylor Swift’s landi hits. :))

Wanting

An actual vacation.

Needing
Money. Haha. What’s new?

Feeling
Sweaty. Just came from the front of the stove.

Clicking

The keyboard?

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Read about the original The Sunday Currently here.

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Getting those feet wet: The Sunday Currently I

August has finally rolled in, which means there are just five months left in this crazy year. My, my, how time flies. I’m still finding my momentum amid all the changes that are ongoing, but I’m grateful for the prep last year provided and the companions who make every new burden a little more fun to do.

Unfortunately my writing has settled itself in the trunk as I go on this current ride. I crammed enrolling into residency for grad school last week, and it only hit me then that I am, officially, in the writing writing stage of the program. And that, I have yet to even officially start.

I can go on and on about how difficult it is to write–to sit down and enjoy the solitude of stumbling through words–against all the exhausting priorities and responsibilites that come with being a department head. Or I can spend my free time at least trying to write.

So here’s a blog post to fill the spaces that have settled into dust. Life is about developing habits, so I shall attempt such with the Sunday currently.

Reading
Re-reading Isak Denisen’s “Babette’s Feast” & Rainer Maria Rilke’s “Diaries of a Young Poet.”

Writing
This.

Listening
The solitude of an empty home. Sunday mornings are best spent in silence.

Thinking
About how the perfect cup of coffee make a difference in a day, how you never really know until you try, how dating someone your age or older actually makes a huge difference in the little things, and how I don’t mind spending the Saturday evening watching a movie at home over spontaneous drinks

Smelling
The cool air after a spell of rain.

Wishing
For a little breather in between or after the coming crazy weeks at work. There are three projects pushing through at the same time, yet I just got regularized. I can officially enjoy paid vacations, but duties may delay that perk further.

Wearing
A purple shirt and checkered boxers.

Loving
My best friends, my loving family, and the amazing new companions I’ve met and laugh with everyday this year 🙂

Needing
Financial stability.

Feeling
Calm yet anticipating the coming events. If there’s one thing 2015 has taught me, it is never, ever boring. Haha.

Clicking
Tumblr. Inquirer. Facebook.