In a burst of uncertainty and fear, I declared to a good friend of mine that I was holding myself back from happiness with the job I’m currently in. I felt envy from what people who’ve moved on were telling me, feeling deprived that I could not broadcast the happy sentiments they were reporting. There were also personal issues going on, which unfortunately had to mix with work, making an escape all the more attractive than feeling stuck and hindered.
But that good friend kept me grounded, and snapped me back to reality with this wise piece of advice: (paraphrased) Happiness is also about making a decision, sticking with it, and finding happiness in what you’ve chosen.
I can go on looking for something else, but for sure, there will be new frustrations and downsides to complain about. Things I cannot imagine now, or at least, am turning a blind eye to because current factors aren’t as good as they should be. Life isn’t perfect, and I have to accept this. There are still benefits and advantages to my present situation, both professionally and personally, that I should be grateful for. For one, I’ve found friends that are worth keeping in the long-term, and whom I know I can rely on no matter what. They were also easy to get along with from the start–something we don’t always find when meeting new people. Cheesy as this may sound, people are the greatest blessings God has given me so far. I’ve met a few bad seeds, but I’m lucky enough to know more than ten people whom I can say hi to and strike up a conversation, dance the night away with, and/or sit down with in a coffee shop. No man is an island. In fact, my island is one huge party!
Professionally, I’m doing what I dreamed of as a career three years ago. Against all odds–technical degree and prior inexperience aside–I am writing and managing the editorial of a few magazines. This is what I envisioned for myself, what I want to do with my life. There’s no turning back now because it’s all I see doing. (Among other, extra endeavors, of course). Making the most out of an opportunity is much more practical than having no opportunity.
So here’s to the present, and seeking happiness, no matter how hard it may seem.